Trina's (Personal) Journal Entry 10

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To say that my life hasn’t been busy lately is an understatement.

Job is going great. Since we’ve been on this“safety” hiatus, I’ve been focusing on regional and upcoming bands both here in New Jersey and Philly.

The music industry has got some great talent out there. Its future is sealed...


Hopefully for some, luck, drive and above all prosperity will come their way.

It is well deserved. Some have very worked hard to get that appearance at the biggest club or at a smaller venue.

Then there’s Bon Jovi…..

And Jon…

Trying not to be neurotic, but writing this all down is helping my psyche. (hahahaha)

My feelings for him are becoming so strong. Forget about the rock star persona, my feelings are getting stronger for the man that he is.

Recently, while at the beach with Kendall and Richie, the four of us stumbled upon a homeless boy.

Named Toby, all of us found a connection to him. Especially Jon and I.

He’s eleven. Smart, athletic and absolutely hysterical. We found out later that his actual parents had abandoned him over a year ago on a street corner for no reason whatsoever.

As a result, he was being bounced around from foster home to foster home, with the last one deciding to use him as a punching bag.

Taking it upon himself to no longer take it, Toby decided that living at the beach was the way out. When we met him, he was looking for food in the trash bins…calling it 'treasure'. Hoping that if he brought it back, his birth parents would take him back no questions asked.

People are so cruel. He’s only a child. Never asked to be born. Holds no judgments. At least not yet. I just hope that whatever his parents told him at the street corner when they dropped him off never to return doesn’t harm him in the long run.

Toby begged us not to bring him back to Child Protective Services after he told us the truth. By then, his charm , the hurt his foster family inflicted on him, made us not want to ever give him up.

My parents were foster parents to Kendall, who was also abused as a child from her birth parents. To this day, as far as they’re concerned, they have two daughters….Kendall and myself. Because of that, Kendall and I understand completely the anxiety Toby is feeling.

Which brings me back to Jon. He’s so good with Toby. It’s fatherly. Whatever persona that I was worried about when this relationship began has been replaced by how good and strong of a person he is.

What i've learned about him is that whatever the risk or repercussions, he’ll take it. Right or wrong, good or bad…

He was going to risk his rock star reputation on being a foster parent to Toby.

CPS turned him down. Without hesitation. Without knowing what ‘he’ was like. Without knowing which was the real Jon. Was it the person who Toby loves to talk to about motorbikes and football? Or was it the rock star that everyone wants a piece of .

He was selfless. He didn’t tell anyone. He just did it. Why? Because of his genuine love for that boy. Toby and hopefully also me, bring out John Bongiovi. A gorgeous guy who does whatever it takes to do the right thing. It may not be what someone else would do, but he does it his way. I respect that enormously.

Too bad that more people don’t see that side of him. It’s a wonderful part of him. One that I love spending time with at every opportunity.

Thank god for Juanita, she's also is selfless. How great is a woman with two grown sons of her own, about to become a foster mother to Toby.... (Fingers crossed)

Jon's voice is back also. He’s working with a vocal coach named Katie Agresta who has helped many a rock star. His voice sounds a little different, but great. It’s a slightly deeper sound. Downright sexy. I love it.

We have until the end of the summer to prepare for Giants. Jon's voice needs to be in top form. So between writing and Jon's training, I’ve been spending most of my spare time with both he and Toby.

If you can believe this, Jon hasn't mentioned the music business in over a week. To be honest, it doesn't come up. Guess our mutual love of family, friends and other things we have in common far outweighs it…

We haven’t gone out officially yet. I haven’t mentioned it because of Toby. Toby now needs us more than some dinner out. Besides, I love the stolen kisses, the runs we take together and the make out sessions we have while the tv blares some late night flick after the craziness of the day is over.

Just taking all of this in one day at a time and as it comes.

Freefalling’s a great thing…